Sometimes it just hits me

How deep the grace of God is. How perfect and pure His love it, and especially how I *so* don't deserve that kind of love.

I almost think that's one of the christian "pick up" line that gets used a lot. "He loves us even when we don't deserve it". While it's true, I think it's become one of those concepts about God that we just sweep off to the side and we know it in our mind, but our heart so easily forgets it.

I remember when I was in India, it was so easy to keep that right in front of me. To walk around the streets and slums crying out in my heart to God to save and prosper that county. I could honestly feel the spiritual depression (one of the cities I was in was dedicated to the goddess of death), I was so aware of the need for God and His unconditional love for that city. I won't ever forget the 4th week I was there and we had just done an open air ministry with drama and music. After the program the translators told everyone that if they wanted prayer then we would pray for them. One little lady came up with a screaming baby girl and handed her to me asking me to pray for her..they couldn't understand English, but even I could tell that the spirit just changed when someone would pray...I remember holding that creaming baby girl, and feeling that she had a fever and praying as soon as I started praying for her she stop screaming and just laid on my shoulder and cuddled up. I couldn't believe how heavy I could feel the presence of God in that moment. It was so real and evident that right there in the middle of city that is over run with death, poverty, immorality and paganism, that the God of all the universe who would die to save just one of those "slum people" meet with a little group of missionaries from American and healed and loved on a little girl from India.

I love the love of God. I want to love my patients that way, I want to love my soon to be husband like that..I want to pour out that love to my friends and family....I want to reach orphans in other nations with that love, and I want girls who are growing in a world that puts them in the spotlight and says they have to look or act a certain...I wan them to know that deep, pure, unconditional love.